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just studied finish geography
natural vegetation!
so much to memorise xia
2mr test is like the whole on physcial geography!
but i never touch anything on Rivers and Coasts!
i am so so dead!
i really don't know how to stuff so much facts into my head!

haiz
today another big scolding from mum
or i can say it can be considered a nagging from mum!
i can only know i don't feel good at all!
It's like the words she said are very harsh!
It's the same old problems though!
i only know my tears just kept flowing and flowing!
haiz!
never mind!
think i can solve these problems soon!
once after o level
i straight away go look for jobs
then need not keep worry so much for money!
though money don't do wonders
but without money one cannot do anything!
this is a fact i must admit!
i gotta work extremely hard
so that i can get out of poverty soon!
and in future no need to be like this
keep worrying for money!

another busy week ahead!
i must jiayou!

Sian
just make a bet with boy
he say i will be attached again within another month!
he's so mean!
he say if i never get attached by dec 30
he will treat me to hotel buffet!
hahaha!
i make sure!
i will not get attached!
going to prove to him
and make a hole out of his pocket!
haha!

integration is hard!
haiz!
keep doing and getting qutie a few question wrong!
this is so URGHhh!
yawn!
i need to ask my friends again on monday!
need them teach me the three amaths theorems taught on fri too!
i must hurry memorise my geo!
the whole physical geo la!

Today i overslept
so did not turn up for school
It's such a pity
as this year is my last year in St Maragret
and today is speech day
futhermore
my senior was going back
to see me
hahaha
but
sad!
never mind
next time bah!

i spent 3 hours doing intergration for a maths
and i am not done yet!
i wasted 2 hours on editing blog
tried two skins
so ya
finally this works!

i going replan my revision plan !
cos the previous one a bit unrealistic
i followed it this week
but could not really complete the work i had planned for a day!
so going replan !

U have to learn how to give and take.
Just take it as a growing process.
Jie dunwan u to feel disappointed and failed all your subject.
If your studies not good,
u think oenry will feel sad?
He won't feel anything de.
Only your family would feel sad.
What u should do now is
to use your studies as a way to overcome your failed relationship.
Do what i told you,
u will definitely forget bout him.
He is e one who always say break,
SO PROVE HIM WRONG BY DOING SUCESSFUL EVEN WITHOUT HIM.
WHEN he wants to patch wit you,
by that time you would have a better bf.
Learn from this relationship and
in future any mistake can be avoid.
Jie wants u to concentrate on your studies first
cos even if u fail,
u think oenry would come back?
NO,
He won't even care for you cos his not yr family ma.
Michelle,
u muz listen and do what i said
cos wad jie said is all e truth.
I t's only after sometimes u will then realise what i said is real.
JiA YOU!
(this is what vivian jie send me)

From the day you leave me, the third time and will be the last time,
me and you will be strangers.
You really caused a great impact on me.
I must admit.
Not able to sleep well
not able to eat well
and cry everyday!
It's defintely going take some time for me to forget you !
But i am determined to forget you!
During this period,
i am going to keep myself occupied
and busy with homework, revision for prelims/o level and
spend time with my family and closed friends
who loved me and are always there for me no matter what!
I really hate you
but really must thank you that
you make me believe what my family and friends
been telling me
Never to trust guys!
Never to go back to a guy side again when he had dumped you the previous time
Though i really hoped that i had not gone through this
but perhaps this is a blessing a disguise.
I have woken up
and learnt never to be stubborn but listen to the advice of my family and close friends!
I just treat it as i had a nightmare and it's a relief that i woke up!

ok one good thing
i ate rice today le
i think it really not worth it
because of him
then don't eat rice
so i force myself to eat
haiz
i am very weak
its darn hard to get over him
why?
after all the bad things he did to me
and made me hate him
i still cannot forget him
he kind of like constantly in my mind
esp in the night
when i am all alone
and just about to sleep
i will just think and tears will just keep flowing
like running tap
it is very tiring and xin ku
i cannot sleep
how i wish i get knocked out or there is something for me to drink
and after that i can completely forget about him
and totally don't know him
how i wish
haiz
my relationship with him is totally strained
we can't be friends anymore
and even one day if he want me back again
even though if i still like him
NEVER will i go back to his side
i hate him
yes indeed i do like i never been before
and i don't trust anything he said AT ALL!

MICHELLE ANG
BUCK UP GIRL
STOP THINKING OF HIM
YOU GOT TO FORGET HIM
MAKE YOURSELF SUPER SUPER BUSY
OCCUPIED WITH STUDIES OK?
THESE TWO DAYS AFTER COME BACK FROM SCHOOL AT ABOUT 5 PLUS
YOU FEEL TIRED AND NEVER REVISE ACCORDING TO YOUR PLAN!
SO NO MORE SUCH THING LE
MUST GET BACK TO YOUR STUDY PLAN!
JIAYOU!

next sat probably meeting wanyi to study at national library
i miss her badly!

tomorrow maybe get to see ceci baobei
miss her badly too
luckily she called me in the morning to chat!
see you tomorrow when you come redhill!

i just realsied i have not touch rice / noodle for 3 days!
i feel hungry
but just cannot eat too much
i feel very full after eating perhaps a sandwich!
recently i just tried to eat some finger food to ease my hunger
then i will be very full then
so weird
i have very huge appeitte de but recently....

ok i also have been a good and dillgent girl i guess?
i started my revision
hope its not too late
went for consultation with teacher whenever i need
and ask friends in class

35 more days to prelims
jiayou!

i feel so loved and concerned!
thanks !

ok i am done with planning my revision time table
now i must strictly follow my plan
another thing
i must starting on a slimming plan too
currently my appettie is not good!
i can be hungry but when i got my food
i eat a few mouthfuls
i cannot eat le
and i always don't know what to eat
so now i always eat finger food
or maggie mee
so as not to waste food and $
and sleeping habits also
at night cannot sleep
then only afternoon then feel tired
i must made myself sleep at night
so that next day i can be alert and focus!

kor i am sorry!
forgive me for going back on my words!
i promise you!
nothing will happen to me!

i think i have got on with life
so friends don't worry for me le
you guys should have seen me cheered up a little today right?
though you people say i still stone abit in the morning
but you people confirm see the difference in me after pe lesson?
i don't know
but i kind of enjoyed the captain ball game though not really challenging as our team keep scoring!
i never felt so loved and cared for by friends( school and outside school)!
i kind of start to love my singlehood!
free to do anything
and i also don't feel lonely at all!

people ask me if i hate him?
i think intially yes
cos he hurt me the third time le
but after i thought it through
i think i benefited from it
it is a blessing in disguise
i seriously learnt my lesson
i have woke up!
so i wanna thank him actually
i haven fully recovered
that quite obvious
but i am sure time will heal my deep wounds

40 days more to preilms
think i gonna scarifice some sleep and tv for studies!
haha
perhaps 5 hours is enough for sleep and no tv from now bah?
haha
a new start for me!

yes indeed i was very depressed about the break up
i know relationship will eventually come to an end
but i did not expect it to turn out this way
i am upset not because he left me
but is some guy friend of his that tag my blog
he must have discuss this with his friend
he is so mean
if you wanna end
you should tell me first and not your friend
and instead you keep it to yourself too
and wait till this friend come tell me
and i confront you then you say
that is what makes me so so upset
from the start that
i agreed to go back to your side
i knew i might be wrong in my decision
cos you have already hurt me twice
but i really love you so much
and i thought maybe you had change
so i agreed
friends have cautioned me not to accept
and their advice was turned on deaf ears.
i really learnt my lesson
never to go back with a guy that initated a break up for the previous relationship
cos there bound to be strains in the relationship
though your sis told me you did not know your friend is the cuplrit
and you had already fixed him up and what so ever,
i not going to care
i am already very dumb to cry for you
my eyes were like running tap for the past two days
today is my last day
after my friends and family encouragement and concern,
i finally thought it through
i will just get on with life
from now onwards i am out of your life
time will heal my deep wounds
and i have got friends and family to care and love me
now i can fully concentrate on my studies!

Tracy ang, my dearest sister
we are not related by blood
but you went all out for me
thanks for yesterday
bring me to arcade and vent my hatred for him
i must have frightened you on mon
thanks a lot

i want to thank xiting,sam yeo,lynn teo,li yi,nat ng, jia ying ,aditi,melinda,lyntte,hyona and many other classmates! thanks for all your concern!

To that passerby who assume he/her is as " people who you don't know".
Lols, who will gave their child this kind of name?
Come on la, she is like my sister.
And you come here and bark like dog.
I tell you nicely by saying that you can leave if you don't like her blog.
And you fucking ask me t shut up when you should be the one who should shut up?
I'm not making fuss about a small things now.
You are human(although you don't wanna name yourself), you do have feeling.
You won't felt good when you see someone you loved teared.
Okay okay, you wish is fulfilled ;D
Your boyfriend picture is down now.
So, now you can click on the red X. Goodbyeeeeee!

i am really going crazy!
i really don't know what to do
why i keep get moody suddenly
then start to anyhow think
negative thoughts keep passing through my mind
and i am so weak
i will just burst and cry?
is that what i only know how to do?
i am super helpless
i don't dare let my parents know about my situation
i don't want them to worry about me

oenry ask what i want him to do?
i really don't know
perhaps spend more time with me so that i won't anyhow think?
i really don't know
i know once i work hard i will be fine
but it just cannot stop thinking!
i am really lost
this is driving me crazy!
i cannot take it
i also don't wamt people who love me to worry about me
haiz!
this feeling suxs!

i know recently i been suddenly moody
then i will start thinking about any sad things
like what if i cannot make it for O level and so on.
i know i have thoughts of death once a while
i know this has been going on for weeks

i am very sorry to worry you,
ceci and weisong
i know you two cared for me
that why you will call me
you worried that i will get depression?
i don't think depression is so easy to get de

i promise you two i won't anyhow think of ending my life
i try to be happy and think positively
i try not to give myself pressure
i try to be happy
i promise you two!
don't worry about me!

what a long and tiring day i had!
i had health check up today!
my eyesight right eye got poorer!
must change my glasses!
and then my backbone left side a bit crooked something like 3 degrees?
nurse tell me to sit up straight and walk straight!

then my team mates were rushing to do our learning journey project during emaths lesson cos mrs low wasn't here which is due tomorrow!
i had to pose today for a profile picture
was like shy
i was like what to pose?
then they ask me to look at some photos pretend to be sorting them out
while then take my picture!

today my school got cluster arts!
but sad i could not go!
i got lesson!
my entire school life in st margaret
i never really take part in cluster art festival
cos past 3 years been selling ice-cream for my club
then this year i got lessons!
sad!
last year le!
haiz!

ok! after my physics lesson, i went for self study!
was shocked that liyi not there!
msg her!
then a min later she came!
did history then 5 pm le
the session ended
so we went to canteen
i had to wait for sis
so liyi pei me
while i continue do my history!
then liyi left
and 6 pm my sis dismiss
so i bought a packet of popcorn
while my sis candy floss
these are some of the items sold for cluster arts festival!
then get back home
eat at downstairs
at the tent there
then home at 7 plus!
watch tv till 8 then bathe
after which did my learning journey reflections
and i just sent it to aditi!

Gosh ! i have not read to my partner today!
we keep forgetting!
2mr got physic test on moment
a short one
half an hour
4 questions though!
gotta study now
bye!
hopefully i complete my homework and revision by 12am!

HAPPY BITHDAY MY PARTNER HYONA!

thanks for everyone for concern!

haiz first time in my life that i kana complained by my teacher.
miss choo complained to my mum that i never go for english remedial lesson
and that i never pay attention in class.
wth
she never say the whole story properly
make my mum misunderstand that i lie to her
the truth is i attend self study session can?
darn pissed with her la
plus i never pay attention? what you mean? meddle with my hair?
pls la no link!
i already reflect on myself le!
i admit only during geo lesson i never pay full attention
the rest esp your lesson i did pay attention can?
idoit!
annoying!
you are the first teacher can?
URGH!
i asked sam whether it is really i never pay attention
she say i am fine lor
i hate it when people accuse me
actually i was ok with it
but mum and dad keep bring it up
this make me super furious!
the more i think of it the more i got even angry!
i always respected teacher the most
and now miss choo ruin it
URGH!
please la
skip lesson and never pay attention you complain to my mum?
why i never see you complain about others?
arent you biased?
futhermore you are seriously accusing me
that makes me more furious!
if i am really in the wrong
i won't mind you complain
in fact i will apologise!
i not going respect you le
cos you don't deserve it!

i must step up my revision!
cannot afford to waste much time!
prelims in 7 weeks time!

bithday girl

meldric lim

take candy shots of him because he refuse to take pic with me. tsk tsk

meldric lim i told you le dont believe me? birthday girl and me

me and meldric went out of the function room to the table near the swimming pool and chat

then slyvia called and ask us to come in to take pic

when we went in gavin was like wow what were you two doing outside?

haha lol
pics taken

and i love the part when they smash the cake on the bdae girl.

actually all of them was preparing for it

she say wait till she finish her cake

birthday girl eating cake

so after finish she just take some cream and put it on meldric face who was eating beside

he is so innocent

meldric's expression after cream is put on the face

haha

then the fun started when meldric went to take revenge and everyone rush to birthday girl

and smash cakes onto her face

the worst was gavin

smash the whole plate at her

birthday girl and me after her wash up